I am by nature a “‘social introvert”. Seriously, you are saying how can you be both 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️. Well I do not enjoy crowds I do not enjoy being the center of attention but I live off the ability of being with the very few handful of soul friends that I have. Like all of you this self containment is so hard. I could have never imagined how hard not interacting with others would be. As all of you know we have a child who has next to zero immune system so this pandemic has made us take “ our normal neurotic “ way of keeping her safe and still active to a whole new level. You can see it effect her the most. Our daughter is a social butterfly from the word GO. She has zero qualms with large crowds meeting people, she loves to be the center of attention…. no let me restate that … she demands to be the center of attention. So this self isolation is the hardest of her. We are doing FaceTiming with some of her friends and her wonderful Camp she attends every year is having her favorite counselors call her. Isn’t that so neat and thoughtful of them ♥️. Love that group of people. They think of everything. They even sent out an email offering childcare to the families who have been hit the hardest by this “ moment in time in America”. I’m telling you Zoeys camp truly are the Hands and Feet of Jesus … but I digress.
I listened to a Beth Moore live Facebook message last night and it was so good. If you follow her on FB go listen to it. She was talking about Paul and his places in Romans where he talks about this “ momentary affliction” which has always been one of my favorite verses. And she said how the Now and all it’s heartache and sorrow and confusion one day will be supremely outdone by the THEN. How all this heartache and suffering and confusion won’t even pale in comparison. How we won’t see God in the end and think well this new heaven and new earth is definitely a 10 but do you see God how I suffered while on earth… and how He is so gracious our suffering won’t just be dismissed or forgotten but we will receive honor and glory for all that we trusted Him through. You would have to hear Beth say it .. her words were just like a salve to my run away train of thoughts and concerns and sadness last night.
So in all this uncertainty and confusion and trying my best to teach my daughter school work and keep her up to speed and then to keep her safe and healthy, it is good to go to bed listening to the words of Jesus. None of this is in vain. Even the sucky parts. I am once again re-learning I do not control my daughters future ( or any of my family for that matter I write about our daughter in this manner bc she is so susceptible to getting sick). I can only rest in the words and the knowledge that Jesus is still in control. He doesn’t promise there won’t be suffering. Heck, he is the chief sufferer of all who have suffered so why would we think following him we would be spared , but in that same breath…. He will go through the storm with us… And through is such a comforting word… it suggests an end.
Isaiah 43:2 New Living Translation (NLT)
2 When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
He is with us now.. He is walking in the fire with us … He is in the oppression with us …He is in the river of difficulty with us… HE IS WITH US! We will not be consumed. Not by fear or worry or loneliness because we are taking His hand because He knows the way Through this suffering.