Funny, this weekend I had the oppurtunity to participate in a very fun community event that my family has taken part of in the past. However, when Sunday came, something in me was like ” no we aren’t going to do this” . What’s even more ironic is I had just heard from a speaker at our Staff Meeting who spoke on when to stop and realize what is your ” most important priority”. That only recently had the word priority become a word we use in the plural form. That by definition a “priority” is a singular important thing.
When you have a medically fragile child you learn quickly the idea of balance. You learn when to say ” no ” to things that make no sense to others and sometimes cause others ot be disappointed in your choices. But as my husband and I have known since Zoey got here, we have to set serious boundaries on our time and emotional social expenditures.
What I could not have known that my ” still small voice knew” was that this would be a hard week already by Tuesday. He knew I would need to save my emotional strength and get the rest that my body requires to be a full and present wife mother and co-worker. Today, what started out as just a routine visit to establish ourselves with a new specialist turned into an upcoming surgery. After recieving that bit of news we then make it home to our son who is facing what should be ” adult hardships” at such a young season of his life. It was an emotionally draining day. Now, image if I hadn’t heeded that ” small voice” that said ” yes would it be fun, are you sad to be missing out, yes” but Trust me…this is not your season to go.
Priority comes from the word prior, which means to come before something else. A priority is the concern, interest or desire that comes before all others. My first and foremost priority is making sure I stay tuned into that ” still small voice” . My next priority is and will always be the four of us in this family. I firmly believe in a quote by one of my pastors that says ” your greatest accomplishment in life may not be something you do but someone you raise.” In order to do that well, I hone in on that voice, He has never failed me. I am trying to pause when He says pause, it is not easy for someone like me who enjoys the ” doing”. But I am learning some of my greatest ” doing” entails ” stopping” .